Thursday, July 16, 2009

Funky things.....

Life has all sorts of FUNKY "twists, and turns" to it and we have to hang on during those times.
Right now.....after something very painful happening to me on Tuesday......

As a result...I've sort of "hit the wall" it seems and I am in a bit of a fog.
I don't want to write.
I don't want to "Wedding plan" which is okay right now because most of it is done.
I don't seem to have any joy or zeal for things right now.
I don't want anyone around me even. Which is so not me.
I want to sit and I want to cry.

And "No" wasn't because someone was mean to me on my blog.

Right now...I can't do much.
I don't even want to go to work. I want to fly off to New York and shop. Or go hide in some foreign country for like 2 years. And I might do both of those things before the day is out if I don't get a GRIP.

Sadly..... I DO WANT TO EAT.......that's stinks. HA! HA!
Why can't those things go away too during times like these.

I need to get up out of that funk though. That is forsure. Because I'm a busy person and I have "places to go, people to see, and things to do."
So this needs to STOP and now.
Pray for me.....this has been devastating to me though. But it's probably stupid to someone else that has gone through death, cancer, divorce, adultry. Things like that.

So I even feel weird feeling bad........but it has alot to do with "REJECTION."

You would think by this time in could handle rejection.
Especially if they've had tons of it as a child and throughout their life.....but all it takes is one well devised plan by that devil and he will lay you out.

I didn't see this coming. Otherwise I would have ducked. But I didn't.

My husband is fine, my kids are fine.....we Mahan's are all fine. But this is a lesson of a lifetime.
Which you think I would have learned by now.

Sometimes.....I love and TRUST way too much.
It's a good and a bad thing.

This too shall pass and I know that. :~)

My good friend Nona who has been undergoing Cancer treatments since Christmas sent me an e-mail today. She knew nothing of my need for healing in my heart.
But God knew and boy..was this ever "spot on" for me to read today.....

Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass...
It's about learning to dance in the rain.

"All of us are born for a reason, but not all of us discover why.
Success in life has nothing to do with what you gain in life or
accomplish for yourself. Its what you do for others." - Danny Thomas


My Vintage Studio said...
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My Vintage Studio said...

I hope you are feeling better in the coming days. When I get in this way...I go to the bookstore, grab some magazines and head right over to their tea & coffee shop. I just read and sip my tea. Also helps me decide which magazine I am going to buy...since we are on such a budget these days. Sending yuou a big hug. Sharon

I don't know what happened to my prior comment. So I rewrote it. Sorry for the confusion.

teresa wood said...

this is my first time ever to visit a blog of any kind. I hope that the battle you are facing today will be quickly over. I sympathize and totally related to your expressions. God bless you and be your strength! Teresa Wood

Ms.Daisy said...

I have been in that spot, too, although a long time ago when my parents and sisters moved to Florida and I stayed in NJ with my family. It felt like (and was) a sort of rejection that I didn't really get over for a few years. Hang in there girl, God loves you and cares for you and will stay by your side. So call on Him whenever you need Him.


IsabellasCloset said...

Dear Joyce, I'm so sorry to read how sad you are.. I hope today is better then yesterday.
Life sure does gives us such awful twists & turns.. I'm sure you wonder just what God does have planned for you.
Sweet friend I will get on my knees and pray for you. You have been such a wonderful friend to so many. It's very hard knowing you are in such pain..
Hugs & much love ~Mary~

Anonymous said...

You have planned the whole wedding already? Which church?

Charlotte said...

Joyce, I was just looking at links to people I like to visit, saw yours, realized I hadn't visited you in a while so here I am. I am so sad to hear that you are going through a rough time. I hope it passes for you very soon. I'm praying for you my friend.

Betsy Smith said...

Don't you just hate a funk? I call the YUCKS. The worse thing about the YUCKS is you never know how long they will stay. Could be a day, could be a week. I am saying a prayer that this is more like a 24 hr YUCKS, for you.

In the meantime, should I bring over a red velvet cake?

Denise said...

Life isn't about waiting for the storm to pass...
It's about learning to dance in the rain.

Oh girl, I am SO SORRY that I am late coming over here..... I guess you are better but I will pray anyway. I hate when we are double punched not seeing it coming....But God knew it was coming and HE prepared you........HE always does......

I will go and read the latest post and see how you are........

Love ya!

sister sheri said...

Thanks for stopping by my blog and for leaving such encouraging words.

Wow! I feel like I could have written this post! We can tell ourselves to get over our feelings of rejection... but having our feelings catch up... well, now... that's a different matter, isn't it?